I have spent my hole life being stepped on and ignored. and now that i have gotten to college i thoght that that stage in my life was over... well turns out im wrong. I am still that doormat that i have always been. and that pissed me off. i think i haven't gotten better you know.. i thought i had changed.. i know inside that i was still the same person but at times i felt like i was not the old me and that made me happy...
I just can't even explain what i am feeling. yesterday was so good until 11:30 rolled around.... and it all just went down hill.. i have been in such a funk today and i just can't explain it... i need more out of life.