Why do i do things that i know will only end up in pain.

I know things have changed yet i still live in the past.

I can't do this anymore.

I am living a life of lies. Thinking that he still wants anything to do with me.

He was one of my best friends. I could talk to him about anything.

He changed scools.

Got a new girlfriend.

And now he doen't talk to me any more.

I can't stand it.

I tried to talk to him tonight and he blew me off. I really take this anymore.

I do it to myself. I talk to him. I trry to go back to "old times" but i guess i don't matter anymore. I really can't do this anymore but i still want to talk to him when he is online and jump at the opportunity to talk to him even tough he ignores me.

I hate myself for doing this.

He is like an addiction.

I know he makes me upset but yet i still go back to him.

God I hat myself.

I hate HIM too!!

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So it has happened again. I found the pefect disign for my diary and the disigners dite went down or something so my picture for my layout is gone. I wish this would stop happening!! I want to know how to fix it.

This really wasn't a good day!!!